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| Diary of a Musafir |
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| UmmWafi |
| 03/04/02 at 10:33:59 |
| [slm] Its been a month since I left home to start life as a student. A month since I can access Jannah on a regular basis. A month that has brought with it many experiences, too many sometimes. I write this diary to update my beloved ;-) s and :-) s here at the Board who have wanted to know how I am faring. Pardon the space intrusion :) Thank you for the offer of your lap Kathy, a luxury I wish I could savour in real life. Where do I begin ? From the start ? Maybe not because the start involved a certain sister Barr and her dubious attempts at getting me penalised on the first day of school ::) I shall refrain from detailing her numerous...emmm..antics ;D for fear she would :'( I shall begin instead with my intellectual journey. Even for a month, the amount of knowledge I have gained is just so amazing tremendous that I cannot thank Allah SWT enough for bestowing this ni'mah on me, Alhamdulillah. My university is called the Institute of Islamic Thoughts and Civilisation. Here we learn almost anything and everything in the fields of Islamic thoughts and also Islamic civilisation. The Professors are just so incredibly fantastic, Masya'Allah. I am taking up 4 credit units this semester which is suicidal but I will have to make lotsa du'a. They are : The Religion of Islam where we talk abt definitions of Islam and the process of Islamisation of everything, especially thoughts and knowledge. I know this sounds simple but the Prof is also the founder of the Institute and he is so very very knowledgeable and his discourses are just so spellbinding. Another unit is Sufi Social Institutions. Rather historical in nature but we also learn the suluk or traversing the Path. Verrryyyy interesting. PS Mujaahid, if u wanna gather a group of da'wah members, learn abt the Sufi tariqah and also the Sufi futuwwah :P Next is the Islamic Moral Philosophy. This Prof is amazing. He is from Northern Africa and this guy can actually zikr using the tasbeeh while teaching us. He has this very bright aura of nur emanating from him. I cried once in class after listening to him talking abt the state of the world today and how we are responsible for it and how we have betrayed Allah in doing so. His lectures are so very insightful and beautiful, Masya'Allah. He told us of this cute phrase which sadly is so true. He said, " The world is what it is today because men adopt the ethics of the profits and not the ethics of the prophets". Last but not least is the unit called Major Muslim Thinker : Ja'far Al-Sadiq. What amazes me is this whole soul and spirit of the school the envelopes u when u are listening to the lectures, Masya'Allah. Next, what should I say about life aside from school ? Life is really tough. I feel so very lonely all the time. Whats worse is I feel so very alone amidst all these people. My heart aches everyday for my children and the guilt wracking me every single moment, wondering am I right to do this to my kids. Sigh...some of the sisters I have met here are very very nice and kind people but I know that I am very much left alone. I feel that I am on a spiritual journey that will take me somewhere so different from where I am now. I pray it will take me closer to Jannah but wallahualam bissawab. I don't regret coming here and am just so very grateful for Allah's infinite Mercy and Grace. But sometimes, crying at night just don't work anymore. I sometimes feel like a robot which is good cos then I am numb. I do nothing much cept read read read read and more read. Sometimes when I think that I have to do this for 2 years, I feel defeated, na'uzubillah. I know...I sound like a crybaby, whining when I should sujud syukr for Allah's blessings but well, I am human with many faults. All you sisters who are married with children...kiss them bedtime special tonight and hug them extra tight. Just cos u are able to...something I hope I can do again very soon. For now..this musafir walks alone. Wassalam. |
| 03/04/02 at 10:55:04 |
| UmmWafi |
| Re: Diary of a Musafir |
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| Mohja |
| 03/04/02 at 14:13:59 |
| [slm] Wow solelah! you *really* are blessed, mash'Allah. This is one more reason why i want to visit malaysia! |
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| NinthMuharram |
| 03/04/02 at 14:34:24 |
| Is ISTAC library open for public? Is ISTAC near IKIM ? I'm always confuse between the 2 locations. Have you personally met/seen Prof. Dr. Syed Muhammad Naquib al-Attas ? Is the Saturday talk/forum for public still on and open for public? I'm getting even sadder for leaving K.L . :( More on ISTAC : http://www5.jaring.my/istac/About/about.htm |
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| UmmWafi |
| 03/04/02 at 21:55:31 |
| [quote author=Mohja link=board=bebzi;num=1015256040;start=0#1 date=03/04/02 at 14:13:59] [slm] Wow solelah! you *really* are blessed, mash'Allah. [/quote] Heyyy only one sister persistently calls me solelah...hmmm i forgot who she was :( |
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| UmmWafi |
| 03/04/02 at 21:58:19 |
| Salaam NinthMuharram ISTAC's library is for students and members only but u can ask for permission from the registrar for a visit. I dunno abt borrowing tho. Yes, I have seen Prof Al Attas in person. He lectures me for Religion of Islam. The Saturday Night lectures have not begun yet and I dunno if its opened to public or not. Btw..where are u leaving KL for ? |
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| NinthMuharram |
| 03/05/02 at 08:33:01 |
| Up North. 8) |
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