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| Leaving for a year |
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| Serena |
| 07/25/02 at 11:57:10 |
| My dearest Brothers and Sisters, Assalamu alaikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuhu. I pray you are all in the best of health and iman. :) Alhamdulillah, I have some great news! :) Two weeks ago, on my birthday, I learned that my cancer is in remission! It’s been a very long, emotionally draining experience but I have come through it, insha’Allah, and I feel great!! I’m more energized, happy and looking forward to the future and whatever it entails for me! :) Also, while I was attending treatment down in Los Angeles, I met this wonderful Muslim woman who was going through treatment beside me and we became very close. We spoke about my situation and how it came about and she was a wonderful support. I truly fell in love with her for her spirit and dedication to our religion. She invited me to her home and then introduced me to her son. :) He was (is) Masha’Allah, a *wonderful* Brother. He’s so kind and funny and also very dedicated. Well, to make a long story short…after much soul-searching, and communicating with this Brother, we became engaged and finally married a few weeks ago! Alhamdulillah! I am SO happy! :-/ (…and in love.) He’s extremely supportive of my decision to keep my son and he treats him with much love and respect. Truly, Allah (swt) showered His (awj) blessings upon me. My son is now 3 months and 9 days. Time goes so fast! He’s growing up so quickly! He’s smiling and cooing and beginning to laugh, Alhamdulillah. What a treasure. :) I recently enrolled in the University (hehe, now that I just turned 30! ::) ) and I’m working on obtaining my Masters Degree. It’s challenging but I’m taking it slowly. I did reach out and try to contact some Sisters here in Sacramento, but the response was quite negative :( And that’s okay, it might take time. My iman is slightly higher. I’ve been working very hard at praying, making lots of du’as and reading Quran. My husband is very encouraging. He reads Quran to me everynight! :-* It’s amazing that when you surround yourself with other practicing Muslims, it begins to rub off on you. Sometimes I sit and watch my in-laws and husband and they bring tears to my eyes. They are so sincere in their actions and they inspire me beyond words, Subhan’Allah. For this reason, my dearest Madina family, I am taking a leave of absence from the board. I have so much going on in my life and unfortunately, I don’t have much time to visit anymore. Not that I don’t want to now. ;) I need to spend a lot of time getting my life back on track. Allah (swt) gave me a second chance. Do you know how that feels? To be so close to death and then He (awj) reaches out to you and saves you. Subhan’Allah, it takes your breath away when you think about it. I always knew that God existed. I just couldn’t *feel* it. And now… I want to lie down under a tree, walk barefoot in the sand, sit on a hill and watch the sun rise with my husband. I want to play with my kids, teach them, and watch them grow into strong, pious Muslims. Kids grow so quickly and I don’t want to “wake up” one day and wonder where the time went. I want to sit with them in the park and watch bugs, Lol! Also, there is *so* much knowledge about our religion that I have yet to learn. I’m only a baby (new to Islam) and for the past year and a half I have been taking too many steps backwards…I’m ready to move forward now. :) I bet you never thought you would hear that from me? Lol Anyway, my point of this post was to say goodbye to all of you. Not for good. One year from today I will be back to give you updates, insha’Allah. All of you have meant so much to me. I couldn’t begin to express it in words. I want you all to know that your words, directed to me or otherwise, have touched me deeply and will remain with me forever, insha’Allah. :) Sister Marcie and Sister Eleanor, you 2 are like the Sister’s I have always wanted. Your posts uplift me and sometimes bring me to tears. Thank you for always being so supportive. Sister Kathy, what can I say? From what I have read about you here, you are a model Mother to me. :) Insha’Allah, one day I can learn from your example and raise my son as you are rasing Ali. Sister Se7en, you are the coolest 8), and I think you know already how I feel about you. ;) JazakAllah Khair. Sister Jannah, I’m sure there have been times when you’ve wanted to kick me out of here but let me stay anyway. ;) For a time there I couldn’t even deal with myself, Lol! You’ve allowed me, and many other Muslims, this board to share our lives and stories with. Some have become good friends off the board as well. All I can say is THANK YOU! I truly appreciate all that you have done and insha’Allah, you and the board will be around for a long time to come. May Allah (swt) abundantly reward with good for all of your efforts. I have learned something from everyone here. I can’t write to each and everybody, but no one has been forgotten. I will miss this place. (looking around ;) ) So many things have happened since I’ve been a member. Some married, some passed away, some having babies, many going through hardships and many being blessed. When you think about it, we have grown together. Our lives are entwined. We truly are a family. It’s with a heavy heart that I leave here and say my goodbyes, but as I look across the room and see my son smiling at me I know, wa Allahu a’lam, that this is the right thing to do. May Allah (swt) bless you all and allow your hearts to be touched by others as you have touched mine. Please take care of, and love, each other for His (awj) sake. I ask your forgiveness for any wrong I may have commited and for your du’as, for this next year will be, insha’Allah, a new start full of happiness and good health! :) I will respond to my pm’s and clear them within the next couple of days so if you wish to send me a private message please do so by email. With anticipation of what’s to come, and many du’as for my Madina family, Serena PS - The one piece of advice I would give is....have PATIENCE! It's very hard to do when you are suffering, or in pain, and sometimes you don't want to listen to it when people tell you, but believe me, it will all work out in the end. Allah (swt) knows best, and who are we to question Him (swj). |
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| Siddeeq |
| 07/25/02 at 12:59:31 |
| [move]Allahu akbar !!! Allahu akbar !!! Allahu akbar !!! [/move] ;-) |
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| AyeshaZ |
| 07/25/02 at 15:24:39 |
Asalamu Alykum, Suban'Allah all these people moving to better things in life is sooooooo amazing. I truly have no words to describe all my emotions for the wonderful words that you have written. *Writing is not my forte*. But nevertheless, the sincerity in your post just eminates. May Allah(swt) bless your future and make everything easy for you. May Allah(swt) bless your family immensely. P.S: he he i also love you for Allah's sake :) take care and please keep us all in your dua's :-X JazakumAllahu khair Your :-) in Islam :) :) |
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| sabri |
| 07/25/02 at 16:08:30 |
| [slm] Mabrook sis and may Allah swt bless you and your family always. ;-) [wlm] |
| 07/25/02 at 16:08:54 |
| sabri |
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| Aabidah |
| 07/25/02 at 16:34:41 |
| [slm] Allahu Akbar sis Serena, may Allahu SubhanaHu Wata'ala Bless you with more years of life and to give you more health, ameen. Your words truly touched my heart and like sis Ayesha said, the sincerity in your post eminates. To answer your question, no I don't know what it feels like to have been so close to death and by the Mercy of Allahu SubhanaHu Wata'ala given another chance. SubhanAllah I can't even imagine the feeling that you feel as you wake up everyday, saying Alhamdulillah. I am very happy for you that your iman is higher and may Allahu SubhanaHu Wata'ala increae us all in Iman, ameen. We will truly miss you sis Serena, for you have been like a family member to me, and I'm pretty sure to the rest of the Madina board. Don't forget us while you're away from the board and we won't forget you InshaAllah. May Allahu SubhanaHu Wata'ala speed your recovery and through these tests of life, strengthen our iman, ameen. If God had a refrigerator, your picture would be on it. If He had a wallet, your photo would be in it. He sends you flowers every spring. He sends you a sunrise! every morning. Whenever you want to talk, He listens. He can live anywhere in the universe, but He chose ...your heart. God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way. Fi amanillah....and plz don't forget us in your dua'a for we won't forget you. [wlm] Betul |
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| Kathy |
| 07/25/02 at 22:36:38 |
| [wlm] Sura 94: Have We not expanded thee thy breast? And removed from thee thy burden The which did gall thy back? And raised high the esteem (in which) thou (art held)? So, verily, with every difficulty, there is relief: Verily, with every difficulty there is relief. Therefore, when thou art free (from thine immediate task), still labour hard, And to thy Lord turn (all) thy attention. Serena's post should go with this sura in the Madina Mission:Truth or Dare #4.... May Allah swt guide your every step... |
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| BrKhalid |
| 07/26/02 at 04:45:37 |
| Asalaamu Alaikum ;-) [quote] PS - The one piece of advice I would give is....have PATIENCE! It's very hard to do when you are suffering, or in pain, and sometimes you don't want to listen to it when people tell you, but believe me, it will all work out in the end. Allah (SubHana Wa Ta`ala) knows best, and who are we to question Him (swj)[/quote] Sr Serena may Allah grant you ease and much happiness ;-) |
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| dirt |
| 07/26/02 at 09:00:48 |
| [slm] Your words bring a smile and a tear to my face. Maybe I'm becoming soft in my old age... Thank you for sharing your joy. [wlm] |
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| Fatimah |
| 07/26/02 at 13:33:13 |
| [slm] MashaAllah sis, your post really touched me. May Allah keep you healthy and in the best of iman. Wow, Allah Akbar! I dont even have words to explain what you made me feel when reading your post. Jazaki Allah khair for sharing that. ps. i had to mention this because it bothered me (i always feel like im picking on people, but i promise im not)... [quote]If God had a refrigerator, your picture would be on it. If He had a wallet, your photo would be in it. He can live anywhere in the universe, but He chose ...your heart.[/quote]We really shouldnt say this about Allah (swt). We shouldnt liken Him to the creation. Also we dont know if this is true. And Allah(swt) doesnt live in our hearts.. He is above the Heavens. Allahu Alim. |
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| Barr |
| 07/27/02 at 11:15:40 |
| Assalamu'alaikum :-) MashaAllah, Sis Serena :):):) Your story strengthens me, mashaAllah. I'm so happy that you're tasting the sweetness of Allah's ni'mah... and may you taste many more, in this life and the hereafter. Ameen. InshaAllah, hope to see you sooner :) [quote]PS - The one piece of advice I would give is....have PATIENCE! It's very hard to do when you are suffering, or in pain, and sometimes you don't want to listen to it when people tell you, but believe me, it will all work out in the end. Allah (SubHana Wa Ta`ala) knows best, and who are we to question Him (swj). [/quote] To quote Br Jaihoon.... "Wait for some more time... Allah is not deaf or blind. He surely knows the warmth of every teardrop shed in the nightly hours." Fasbir Sabran Jameela*... Fasbir Sabran Jameela, indeed. Leaving you in Allah's keep With love and salam, :::Barr::: :-) * Therefore do thou hold Patience,- a Patience of beautiful (contentment). (Surah Al-Maarij 70:5) |
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| BroHanif |
| 07/28/02 at 18:25:28 |
| [slm], Take care sis, I hope the journey you take is upon the Quran and Sunnah..anyway and you'll always be in our hearts... All the best all the time. Salaams Hanif |
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| se7en |
| 07/30/02 at 23:26:09 |
| as salaamu alaykum, Serena chica, may Allah continuously bless, guide and purify you on this journey of life, and grant you and your family noor. You will be in my duaa's, inshaAllah.. and I hope I'm in yours ;) Hope to hear from you soon, inshaAllah. wasalaamu alaykum :-) |
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