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I'm like a tight-rope walker [a reflection]
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10/29/02 at 08:39:58
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Here's an interesting read:

As a Muslim I'm like a tight-rope walker

What is it about death which scares us? Perhaps it is the fact that death is when we finally realise that we really don't control everything.  Perhaps we have too much baggage and too much of an attachment to this life - Shaytan has made it alluring for us - and we, we have been weak and followed him.

Rather than following the straight path - a path which although it may seem hard at times - is really the one we should be travelling on, we wander here and there like lost sheep.  I feel like a tight-rope walker sometimes.  Teetering along I finally fall into a rhythm and start travelling the straight path, then something knocks me back, and I ignominously topple off, feinting to the left, right or anywhere but straight ahead.

It's at times like that, that my eeman is weak, that I need Allah swt's help the most, and it is inevitably at those moments that I find myself feeling depressed, irritable and on the verge of tears at any moment.  Allah swt tests me and you at such times - do we fall into despair * why do things like this always happen to me?* or do we turn to Allah praising Him and asking Him for sabr, and asking Him to fulfill our needs?

I know that I am not always grateful for the many blessings which the Most Merciful has bestowed on me, I also know that I don't always try my hardest to be a good Muslim.  Sometimes my eeman teeters and wobbles like the tight-rope walker - yet I inevitably return to Allah swt who, in His infinite mercy and forgiveness will forgive me if my repentance is sincere.  Yet it is the constant fear that my prayers and pleas for forgiveness may not be accepted that ultimately drive me to work harder at becoming a better Muslim.  After all, the reward at the end of the line is so great that I don't want to forfeit it.  I can't even begin to imagine the joy of being near Allah swt my creator, and near all the Prophets (alayhis salaam) and especially our beloved Prophet Muhammad saw, the sahaabah, and all of those pious ones who have achieved closeness to Allah swt.   I want to be among them, and it is why I hope that I will ultimately fall off less frequently.  After all the shame and agony of falling off will be nothing compared to the punishment of the hellfire.

As Allah swt says in Surah al-A'la, verses 16-17 "You prefer the life of this world but the hereafter is better and more lasting".


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