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| Anonymous |
| 05/05/03 at 03:56:38 |
| As-salam Alaikum warhamatullah wabarkatuhu! I pray that things are all right with you all, Ameen! I wish to seek some advice from those of you who are religious and devout. Well, you see my family thought i was doing well and on the right track and suddenly they saw me struggling with life like a failure. This happened over a course of 2-3 years and even after another 3 years i am not quite near what i was expected to be. Personally i am hopeful that i would get on track insha Allah soon. My problem is the feeling that i get. i feel that my family thinks that i may have committed some big sins that i was punished for. not that they say so it's just the feeling. on my part i was not quite truthful in telling them as to what happened 'cos the real thing was that i did not do the things i was supposed to do due to things like stubbornness, laziness, lacking social skills etc, which are all quite sins i understand and any reasonable person can only expect failure because of all these but then they arent like other shameful acts which i might have indulged in 'cos i was living in the land of freedom :P , and i guess thats the connection to my feeling! well, i used to be quite loved and respected ;) by my parents (they would even ask me to pray for something like xyz) but no more, u know how hard is that to not see the same glow in their eyes when i go see them, rather a disappointed look. i only wish i could get back and undo my past yet i guess i have lessons learnt. Well, my question is how do i get over this stubbornness thing. i guess i have overcome the laziness part to a good extent, alhumdulillah but this becoming adamant kills me 'cos i stop the channel of communication with ppl and assume the worst and take that as the reality without even trying! Jazak Allah Khair and pray for me and my family. was-salam <<anonymous>> |
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