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| In Life do we part |
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| UmmWafi |
| 07/10/03 at 03:00:56 |
| [slm] The death of the Iranian twins who opted for separation surgery impacted many people in many ways. I too am greatly affected by their deaths. Not because I knew them personally but because of lessons they left behind. The twins knew that the surgery was risky, that either one or both of them can die. Yet, they decided to go ahead because they wanted freedom more than the safety of life. They were different people, each with her own aspirations and dreams. At the end, they decided that they needed to realise those dreams and opt for separation. Yet....as Allah has decreed at their birth, their souls shall always be intertwined, till death. When the news of their death hit me, I thought vey hard about my situation in life. I realised then that whether I was conscious of the fact or not, I too was born a twin. The twinning between my hikmah and my nafs. Like the twins, my hikmah and my nafs have different personalities. Although both were given to me by Allah the All Merciful, one knew that I should enslave myself to the search for His Love and Mercy while the other wanted to chain me to this earth. My body and heart went riot. Confusing signals caused me many of life accidents, some leaving permanent marks on my soul. Why ? Somehow...the answers are there and yet we fail to realise that we needed answers. Who was more persuasive ? The gentle reason of hikmah or the passionate outburst of nafs ? Sigh...there were times when my soul feel that it is going mad with all the conflicting voices and emotions. Somehow, in the wee hours of that morning, hemmed in by the bare, white cold walls of my room, I know for certain that I am a prisoner of my tumult. I had no choice but opt for freedom. This struggle for my freedom will begin with hope....a hope that is just as strong and determined as the twin's. The alternative is death....the death of my spiritual flight to Haqq. As I begin this separation of the nafs from my hikmah, I, like the twins, need every du'ah and love I can get. Wassalam |
| Re: In Life do we part |
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| Maliha |
| 07/10/03 at 11:32:29 |
| [slm] Subhana Allah...the analogy of the twins is deep...I kept thinking how Allah tests each of us in different ways. To be Physically attached to another being must be so hard...yet you are right we are all attached spiritually and not just to our nufoos but the plethora of other life choking forces in life. [quote] The gentle reason of hikmah or the passionate outburst of nafs ? Sigh...there were times when my soul feel that it is going mad with all the conflicting voices and emotions. Somehow, in the wee hours of that morning, hemmed in by the bare, white cold walls of my room, I know for certain that I am a prisoner of my tumult. [/quote] Subhana Allah it is this same realization that keeps me restlessly tossing and turning in the deepest depths of the night. The gigantic waves of my outbursts are enough to drown me wholly... yet the beauty of the little voice that Allah has impregnated deep within us...is the sweetest melody that keeps me yearning, hoping, breathing...it carries me gently into yet another shore..another struggle. [quote] had no choice but opt for freedom. This struggle for my freedom will begin with hope....a hope that is just as strong and determined as the twin's. The alternative is death....the death of my spiritual flight to Haqq. [/quote] May Allah keep gusting the winds of Rajaa in your soul, May He make your flight to Him easy, May He fill your journey with His winds of Respite, Rahma, and Maghfirah...and just when you think you can't move anymore..May He engulf you in His All Encompassing Love and leave you with no other Recourse but His blissful abode..Jannah (Amin). [quote] As I begin this separation of the nafs from my hikmah, I, like the twins, need every du'ah and love I can get. [/quote] You are always in my duahs Sunshine:) I love you lotssss!!!!!! sis, Maliha |
| 07/10/03 at 11:33:48 |
| Maliha |
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| Shahida |
| 07/11/03 at 04:06:56 |
| [slm] I was feeling kinda down the last few days, for many reasons... :'( then i came here and read these posts, may Allah reward you all, they just lifted my spirits and gave me such strength to carry on...like a wave of warm, real realisation...alhamdulillah! UmmWafi, Maliha, jazakumAllahu khairun :-* Salam Shahida :-) |
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| UmmWafi |
| 07/15/03 at 23:32:00 |
| [slm] Dearest Rainbow, How I missed those goofy moments we usually have on yahoo. Yet, what I miss more is the enjoinment of our mind and hearts. Its getting tougher here for so many reasons and I am exhausted every single day. I am recovering as I type this...nothing serious just food poisoning. How I wish its easier to recover from spiritual illnesses. Still, awareness is the first step towards change. Saw the photos of the retreat, Maa sha Allah, they were absolutely gorgeous. Subhanallah, I am so very happy that Barr, Se7en, Jannah (u look cute smiling in EACH photo :) ) and you were granted this opportunity by Allah SWT to savour His Magnificence....Alhamdulillah. It is strange but the twin's death has been used politically to cast slurs on neighbouring countries. I wonder...when will we ever learn that our life, our breath, that WE don't belong to us. At the end of the day, we are nothing but just a grain of sand is Allah's Infinite Power. I feel like the grain of sand now...and like any grain of sand..I am drifting, blown by the howling winds of Life. Miss ya lots and lots and love ya fi amani Allah Wassalam |
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