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| The Eclipse... |
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| Maliha |
| 12/05/03 at 21:01:26 |
| [slm][i] The eclipse... It's too early for me to be feeling this way. I can't. It's impossible. I hold on to the dredges of my bittersweet memories of Ramadhan and wonder what happened and why so soon? I try to recreate those beautiful sacred moments that were weighed down by the palpable feeling of Allah's Mercy, and yet the emptiness sets in..and occupies a larger than life space within me. What's wrong? Ramadhan comes and goes...but Allah is Eternal. I am too distracted. Too many assignments. Too much procrastination. Too many world events to intellectualize. Too much talk. Empty. I run from moment to moment hoping to capture something...that depth...yet its almost like I just missed it. I am running after a mirage that seems to dissipate before I can quench my thirst. I try to catch the Fajr dew drops...I read Quran and Weep. But even my tears taste different. Maybe i can blame it on the devils without...unchained. Or maybe its those within...untamed. Maybe its the nature of my quest. That which I would like to grasp fully does not exist. In this realm everything is chaotic...humans are too weak to deal with the concept of Will power. Maybe its not weakness...maybe its the dire foolishness that seems to be the order of the day. We are too dumb. Like sheep being led from one valley to the next..wandering around the pastures of desolation with no purpose. no aim. Our lives are no bigger than our empty houses and frivolous talk...Our cores are no stronger than the coffee cup we just simply have to have from starbucks every morning. our intellects are no more analytical than the latest TV show...or making the statement that's just so outside the norm..it gotta make us Original. Our souls are too empty....to capture what the essence of life is all about. We are walking voids...and even those who profusely proclaim their faith in the All Seeing, are hiding desperately behind their hypocritical stances. Why so bitter? Who is dictating this jargon? My heart is dense...perchance its just a fleeting moment that will die and all too soon another one will rise...I pray the sun within does too. [/i] Sis in struggle, :'( [wlm] |
| Re: The Eclipse... |
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| AyeshaZ |
| 12/07/03 at 13:50:06 |
| [wlm] subhan'Allah my feelings exactly! :'( |
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