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| Serena |
| 03/08/04 at 01:49:32 |
| [ Hi, this is Stephanie. I deleted my mom's post the other day and I tried to find it tonight but I found this first version of it instead. I thought it was better so now I am posting it again. My mom has taken a turn for the worse today. :(] My dearest Brothers and Sisters in Islam, Assalam alaikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuhu. I pray you are all in the best of health and iman, insha’Allah. :) I sit here typing this just 4 hours after I heard the news: “I’m sorry Serena. We have done all we could.” :( Those were the heartbreaking words of my doctor as she told me that the 3+ years of suffering that I have endured are coming to an end. A battle within me that I have fought (and will continue to fight until the end) for such a long time. A continuous struggle, not only physically, but mentally and spiritually as well. It’s funny, you would think that when you hear news like this you would be upset or angered. I’m not. Okay, well my initial reaction was to run and hide hoping that death wouldn’t find me, but we all know that doesn’t happen, lol. But now, I feel… at peace. If this is what Allah (swt) has decreed for me, there is nothing I can do but to accept it and continue to pray for his mercy and forgiveness. It would only be through His infinite mercy and power that I would be granted some reprieve and returned to good health. It wouldn’t be the first time He has done it. :) Anyway, if this is how it is to be for me, then I must say good-bye to this board and to all of the wonderful people who have touched my life through the years. My time now is very precious and I must dedicate it to my loved ones. For this reason, I will not be online, answering IM’s, or returning emails. I will spend what time I have with my kids, and preparing for whatever may be. My nights will be spent in prayer, my days filled with dhikr. I have taken so much of my Islam for granted always thinking, “there’s always tomorrow.” But truth be told, we never know if there will be a tomorrow. So better late than never, I am trying to learn what I can, the best way I can. I only wish that I had planted my feet deeper into our wonderful Deen where I could feel at peace that I have provided a solid foundation for my kids. May Allah (swt) forgive me for not doing so. :( I can only hope that when they feel their iman unstable, they can find a great group of Brothers and Sisters, like all of you, to help stabilize them, the way you all have helped me these past 4 years. I hope and pray that Allah (swt) continues to guide them to the straight path, and protect them from the evil in this world. You are the best bunch of Brothers and Sisters I have ever met. Your genuine concern for each other is overwhelming. Your diversity and the unique views you all bring to the board make this one awesome home away from home. I can’t tell you how much I appreciate all of the help you have given me through my high and low times. No matter what, I always felt like I could come here to be comforted or reassured that everything would be okay. And now it is time to say goodbye, because it seems that Allah (swt) has other plans for me. Sister Kathy: Masha’Allah, you are an amazing mom! Thank you for inspiring me. Sister Jannah: I never got to know you personally, but through your message board, I met some really wonderful people. I thank you, more than you could ever know. Your posts, whether you knew it or not, always helped me, and inspired me. I will keep you in my du’as. Thank you. :) Sister Azizah: You are one of the most caring women I have ever met. You amaze me with how generous you are. I consider you my Sister, and I will continue to pray for your path to Islam. Thank you is not enough. Sisters JustOne, Maliha, Simply_Sister, and so many others: I have learned so much from you. I always look forward to reading your posts. What great role models you are! Sister Marcie: I only wish we could have been in contact more often. You are so sweet and kind. Every time I was down, you were always there. Thank you so much. :) Sister Se7en: I don’t think I ever got around to it due to circumstances, but Mabrook! on your upcoming wedding. I wish you and Brother Abu_Hamza all the best in this life and the next. :) All of the Sisters on this board are very precious and I would have loved to meet each of you in real life. Brother HumbleMuslim: Thank you for the honesty in your posts. And thank you for all your help throughout the years. :) Brother Nomi: Thanks for the laughter, and for helping out Stephanie with the laptop problems. Brother BroHanif: Thank you for all your help over the years. Please give me Salaams to the little ones for me. :) Brother AbuKhaled: Last but certainly not least. :) I would be doing you a disservice if all I said was thank you. I can only hope and pray that others can benefit from you, and be inspired by you, as much as I have. No one is forgotten, believe me. If I have ever transgressed the lines with any of you, I am truly sorry. That was never my intention. I have only ever said the truth, and spoken from the heart. I ask your forgiveness for any wrong I may have done. Any good is from Allah (swt) alone. I ask you to please keep my kids in your du’as because this will be a most difficult time for them. I wish you all the best in this life and the next. I pray that Allah (swt) blesses you all and grants you what is best for you. I pray that He (swt) continues to bless this board and its members…strengthening the bond between you all. I pray that He (swt) protects you and your families during these troubled time. I pray that He (swt) guides us all to the straight path….and…I pray that we meet again in Jannah, because we will be with those we love, and I love you all for the sake of Allah (swt). With many du’as for my Madina family, Serena |
| 03/08/04 at 01:53:39 |
| Serena |
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| Lil_Sista |
| 03/08/04 at 07:36:07 |
| [slm] may Allah make u and ur kids strong, sister Serena (ameen ya Rabb) but still ur post makes me :'( |
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| salaampeaceshalom |
| 03/08/04 at 08:01:22 |
| [slm] Mash'Allaah :( I don't know what to say apart from I pray that everything u have made du'aa for is accepted by Allaah and that He does indeed have Mercy on u and ur whole family, ameen. I also pray that the new conviction in Islaam u may have will help u get through, and will indeed be to ur advantage insha'Allaah. I hope u and ur family will know that everyone on the board will insha'Allaah be willing to help whenever u need it, just ask insha'Allaah :) May comfort and ease be with u all, wa'salaam |
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| lala |
| 03/08/04 at 09:54:31 |
| [slm] we're all here for you and your family..yes although this is just a virtual world..many of us are willing to help out in any way.. Thanks for your time also! Keep the faith... Much love! lala |
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| timbuktu |
| 03/08/04 at 20:17:49 |
| [slm] sis Serena sometimes the doctors are astonished at an impossible recovery did I tell somewhere about the recovery of a boy who had leukemia? His parents went for Umrah and prayed to Allah while having their first sip of ZamZam there. never give up hope. The prophet [saw] said there is a medicine for every disease except old age. use black seeds and honey, first thing in the morning. The prophet said: These seeds are medicine for every disease except (old age or death, I forget here). and when the time comes, we move closer to our eternal abode. may that be Firdawse a3alaa for all of us. aameen When Shah Waliullah was near the end of his life, people saw worry on his face, which changed to a smile. They asked him the reason, and he replied: "I was worried about my sons who are very young. I worried who will look after them. Then I saw the prophet [saw], who told me not to worry as he [saw] would take care of them." The three sons of Shah Waliullah grew up to be very learned and pious Ulema. may Allah (swt) take care of your children and grant them the best in this world and in the hereafter. aameen |
| 03/08/04 at 23:26:18 |
| timbuktu |
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| theOriginal |
| 03/08/04 at 21:55:40 |
| [slm] May Allah ta'Ala grant you complete shifaa, inshaAllah. Wassalaamu Alaikum |
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| paula |
| 03/08/04 at 22:12:26 |
| [slm] … Ameen We love you Sisters Serena & Stephanie … there is a whole post of thought that flowed & in the end I do not want to post it here & sound presumptuous (it would lose it's purpose)… I just want you to realize we love you so very much for the sake of Allah (swt)… & offering dua’a for the very best. You both are very courageous to say the least … May Allah(swt) assist you in every way… May He reward you well for the very true reminder you have offered to us all… Insha’ Allah … Ameen [wlm] |
| 03/08/04 at 22:16:40 |
| paula |
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| rkhan |
| 03/09/04 at 00:15:41 |
| [slm] May Allaah swt shower you with His Mercy, protect you from all harm and ease all your affairs inshallaah...many duas |
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| Halima |
| 03/09/04 at 03:19:16 |
| Allahu Akbar! I post like Sis Serena's makes your heart break. And yet at the same time, makes you appreciate people here more and more. Makes you learn from their courage, their humanity and their true self. For you Sis Serena, May Allah (SWT) be with you all the time. May He continue to make your suffering lesser, May He shower you will love from your family, friends and all the people who care about you. May He bless your daughter Stephanie tremendously for her intelligence and grace and all your other children (if you have more). I thank Allah for your presence here, for having known you net wise. For you have indeed enriched our lives with the wisdom in your post which I would refer to as a gift rather than a sad one. Thank you for sharing. And thank you Stephanie for posting. You will be in our duas and thoughts. Halima |
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| faith |
| 03/09/04 at 05:11:31 |
| [slm] i am so sad to read your post, sister serena. :( I pray that you will be in the best of conditions, in imaan, and I thank you that you have shown us courage, wisdom and strength to believe in spite of your illness. I pray that Allah will continue to shine the light of truth into your heart, and your family's hearts, and that His Mercy will overcome any difficulties you & your family face. Salam, :-) |
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