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| IMuslim_4Ever |
| 03/22/04 at 16:04:30 |
| [slm] how are you all? inshaallah fine... recently i have been in weird moods... :( its not like i am nearing my montly cycle thingy... i am in these strange moods neverthless... i feel dawn all the time... (yes, i read Quran and do namaz to feel good) but still its like nothing works!!! i am soooo depress... :'( when i am alone all i think about that how much i don't like this stage of my life... so many things are happenning to me... i am having problems in college/ hard courses, 3 family members who are gonig through operations, parents are really sick, brother is totally out of islamic ways forgatting islam, my family members think i am changing, becoming too into islamic traditions (becuase i joined the college MSA, and repeat the islamic lectures that i heard to them), and so many other little problems. "sigh" i know Allah [swt] test His slaves and wants us to have patience. however, i think i am losing those test, because i can't have nymore patience than what i have now... when people look at me they see a perfectly happy, always similing girl.... but they do not know how i am feeling inside... my friends always complain, 'how come you are always so clam, and look so happy?!" BUT I AM NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! reality is that there is a tempest inside me, a scary, ugly, and dark tempest!!!!!! Is it a good thing that i am always so calm???? I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY OR DO I think about quitting college like at least twice a day... but i don't.... not yet... what if one day i seriously do it???? should i do it? is it gonna make my problems dissappear? i wonder... i really wonder... my mind is not working... not anymore... i don't know how i am gonna handle the other 3 years of college! :( :( :( :( sorry that i am sharing only my depression :( honestly this is the only place where i like to come when i am depress.... even my colsest friends cant help me... jazakallahu kheir for lending your ears or eyes for this matter... ma salaama |
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| timbuktu |
| 03/24/04 at 04:59:42 |
| [quote].... when i am alone all i think about that how much i don't like this stage of my life... so many things are happenning to me... i am having problems in college/ hard courses, 3 family members who are gonig through operations, parents are really sick, brother is totally out of islamic ways forgetting islam, my family members think i am changing, becoming too into islamic traditions (becuase i joined the college MSA, and repeat the islamic lectures that i heard to them), and so many other little problems. "sigh" i know Allah [swt] test His slaves and wants us to have patience. however, i think i am losing those test, because i can't have nymore patience than what i have now... when people look at me they see a perfectly happy, always similing girl.... but they do not know how i am feeling inside... my friends always complain, 'how come you are always so clam, and look so happy?!" BUT I AM NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! reality is that there is a tempest inside me, a scary, ugly, and dark tempest!!!!!! Is it a good thing that i am always so calm???? I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY OR DO I think about quitting college like at least twice a day... but i don't.... not yet... what if one day i seriously do it???? should i do it? is it gonna make my problems dissappear? i wonder... i really wonder... my mind is not working... not anymore... i don't know how i am gonna handle the other 3 years of college![/quote] welcome back, and welcome to student life :) This is what everyone goes through, so don't worry, but you know what: I would exchange my settled working life for the student life any day. Now some practical advice. Take things one at a time. Your family is not your problem at this moment. You need to make dua for them, and no more. Once you have prayed for them, leave them in Allah's care, and move on to the next item on your list. Don't ever take their problems to heart at this stage! as for your changing, becoming more religious, and your family not liking it, again that does not matter. You are changing for the better. When Allah (swt) is pleased with you, that is what will count. No one else's pleasure. Not your family's not anyone on this board, not any one except Allah (swt). inna salati wa nusuki wa mamati lillahi Rabb-il-3alameen that is the state to aim for. Insha`Allah you will attain it. everyone is Allah's creation. He makes them go through different stages and tests in their lives, all you can do is dawah, and pray, and then FORGET. even the prophet [saw] was told he doesn't have to carry so much burden on his shoulders. and the problems at college! I guess you have compounded them by worrying about everything under the sun. If you were to concentrate on your studies, things would be all right. and don't you think about quitting college. That is indeed weird. There is this girl, daughter of my late friend, in her fourth yaer of medical college, and she was married off by her mother about a mont and a half ago, and she wants to quit college, and boy, am I crosswith her? It is the most stupid thing one can do. Learn this lesson in life - think a lot before taking a decision, once you have taken it, do not think of reversing it at every difficulty. all the best, and stay calm and happy. Allah (swt) has sent you in thsi world, and given you so much talent; be happy for all His blessings. |
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| nida |
| 03/24/04 at 20:21:20 |
| [slm] don't worry sis..everyone feels like that at some point. sometimes..when i am feeling really depressed i just want to DISAPPEAR...become invisible. ;D what works for me is that i do wudu and pray. and oh, its so refreshing, especially if u really concentrate in your salah. Then i think about there are people who are in worst situation than me..and that i really shouldn't be complaining. and don't forget to make Dua, its one of the most powerful things. Always know that Allah is there, and he is testing you. Ask him to give you patience to get through difficult times. Hope everything gets better for ya, Inshallah. l8er. [wlm] :-) |
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| Emerald |
| 03/25/04 at 23:43:40 |
| As-salaam aleikum IMuslim, when I was reading your post I was like when did I post this??? I scrolled up and saw your name! It was like what you said was a mirror image of what I am going through. So I hope that knowing you're not the only one in the same boat will be of some comfort. Unfortunately, I can't give an answer since I'm in the same situation but if you ever need to vent, I'll listen. I do think sometimes it's the PMS talking but most of the time it's stress. Life is not merciful but Allah (swt) is so all we gotta do is be patient. Whenever it get's really bad for me I say, La hawla wala kuwata illah billah repeatedly and I remember the ayah, Ina ma3 al usri yusra. (with great hardship comes ease). So keep a chin up sis. *hug* Emerald |
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| IMuslim_4Ever |
| 03/29/04 at 10:33:37 |
| [slm] :'( thank you guys soooo much.... Brother timbuktu thank you so much for understanding and giving advice (always)... i guess everyone goes through this... but i am really a softy :) i get hurt, depress, and crzy within seconds... :) now, things are still same, but a new kindda situation is attcking me :( bro, i am gonna im you about that inshaallah... sorry for taking up ur time all the time... sis nida, and emerald thank you... jazakallah kheir... and a big ((((((hug))))))) for you too sis emerald....... its enough that i fall into those situation.... i wish my borthers and sisters won't have to face them.... inshaallah Allah [swt] will make things easy for us... ameen ma salaama |
| 03/29/04 at 10:35:15 |
| IMuslim_4Ever |
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