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Having doubts/lack of faith/deen
Caraj
10/10/05 at 01:50:46
Assalaam Allaikum, I feel quite ashamed even posting, but my heart is heavy and I felt you all would understand.

My heart, my total being feels so connected to other Muslims.
I never felt this connection with Christianity.
However I am having doubts about everything lately and I am so sad about this.
I am making efforts to each night read Quran and praying for guidance and assurance.
I know most of this is my own fault for not going to any Islamic centers and learning and making contacts with other sisters.
I have many new questions which I will post here later.
I hate feeling in turmoil.
I may try to call you Sister Kathy Tues if you're not busy please PM me and let me know.
Please make duas for me that I can feel secure and confident in my faith.
I don't mean to sound weird.
Thank you all
10/10/05 at 01:51:35
Caraj
Re: Having doubts/lack of faith/deen
jannah
10/10/05 at 02:17:19
The prophet saw said that the lone sheep is surely to be devoured by the wolf and this is why muslims should be around other muslims. It is the only way we can support each other and help each other in our faith. (The internet is not enough.)

It's normal to have doubts and questions, that is part of life -- so don't give up~!! just search for the answers and knowledge inshaAllah

wlm,
Re: Having doubts/lack of faith/deen
Siham
10/10/05 at 02:25:35
[slm] Dear sis Azizah,

I’m really sorry to hear what you’re going through at the moment, please don’t hesitate to ask any questions that you may have, we are always here for you.

Insha’Allah this will all soon pass so don’t worry sis –- because Allah SWT said: And we will surely test you with some fear, hunger and loss of possessions, persons, or crops. But give good news to the patient/steadfast. Those who say, when calamity afflicts them: "We belong to Allah SWT and to Him we return." They are the ones upon whom are blessings from their Lord and mercy; and they are the ones who are guided. (Qur’an 2:155-157)

Insha'Allah be patient and Allah SWT will reward you, you're in my prayers.

wassalaam.
10/10/05 at 10:06:19
Siham
Re: Having doubts/lack of faith/deen
Halima
10/10/05 at 03:13:41
[slm]  Sis azizah,

So far, you have done what you can - learning about the Deen, visiting Islamic websites, reading the Holy Qur'an, practicing the Shahada, etc., - all alone.  

Now, try to move to the next level - getting in touch with Muslims around your area, learning and observing fast hand all the applications of what you have learned, getting involved in activities, etc., - with the help others.

May be these will help put your doubts aside and answer many of the questions you have directly.  Who knows, Allah will guide you and put in your path people who will truy help you.  Have faith, take the next step.

I feel for you and wish you all the best.  Certainly, we will all pray for you.

May Allah shower his blessings on you, this blessed month.

[wlm]

Halima

Re: Having doubts/lack of faith/deen
bhaloo
10/10/05 at 10:01:18
[slm]

Sister Azizah, I agree with Jannah that you should visit your local community.  I'd also like to make some suggestions regarding the Quran.  You should listen to it:
http://english.islamway.com/sindex.php?section=erecitorslist

and pick your favorite recitor, Mishary Rashed al-Efasy is really good as is Saad al-Ghaamdi.  Then listen to a few surahs, and insha'Allah you will feel much better and your heart will feel at ease.
Re: Having doubts/lack of faith/deen
theOriginal
10/10/05 at 10:37:28
[slm]

So you know...I was feeling kind of blah-ish about my imaan too.  It was especially alarming because Ramadan is here, and I felt like I had lost the month before it even started.

Honestly the earthquake sort of jolted that nonsense out of me, Alhamdulillah.  

I know you're far away, but turn on the TV and watch some of these people.  They have lost everything.  Their families, homes, jobs, village...and yet, subhanAllah, they are still thanking Allah for whatever they have left.  It is unbelievable, and I think their faith humbles me to the extent where I want to kick myself for being so ungrateful.

Take a look at some of thepictures on this website:

[url]http://www.geo.tv/[/url]

You see that building, where half of it has collapsed?  My friend used to live in that building.  She said she walked out into her corridor, turned to the left, and saw nothing.  Everything was gone, including the fire escape.  And the collapse had missed them by a distance of about 7-8 feet.  That is...extraordinary.

Perhaps not quite the happy stuff you want to hear...but really touching, nonetheless.

I wanted to donate blood, but unfortunately, I am underweight.  That was really irritating.  But inshaAllah, I can find some other way to help.

Wasalaam.
Re: Having doubts/lack of faith/deen
jannah
10/11/05 at 00:47:18
salam,

you know last night i went to taraweeh at my mosque (night prayers during ramadan) and there were these two mothers there. they both have adorable little girls 3 years old and they are both fully 9 months pregnant! they are due within 2 days of each other around the 20th of this month. and we were  all talking about how amazing it was that there were 4 women who are all 9 months pregnant and they try to come for taraweeh and stuff and they will all have their babies during this ramadan inshaAllah :)

anyway so i was looking at them both and then i realized one is from morocco she is arab white and the other was south indian with a nice chocolate complexion, they both are young and know enough english to get by, but speak to their kids in their own language. they were chatting to each other animatedly and yelling at their girls in turn.. and i thought there's just nowhere else this could happen. i know that each of them would do anything to protect the other's child.. i know that they would even breastfeed the other's baby if anything happenned to their newborns and they needed milk. and the only thing that is the bond between them is their islam. i mean this is the only deen that can bring such opposite, completely different people's hearts together. it just struck me that there is no man-made religion that can do this. it is something that comes from having the truth.

we can all read the Quran and the hadith and books about Islam and they are all nice and wise and make sense, but seeing things like this is what imaan (faith) IS... so many arabic books talk about the "sweetness of Imaan"... no one can understand this term until they have actually tasted it. and it has to be experienced it cannot be something that is logical.

so that's my story and that is why it is important to be around muslims, so that we can learn these lessons and examples for ourselves.

also, for anyone exploring islam, it's important to take your time and go slow. learning a little at a time and tasting that sweetness of faith. sometimes it can take 1 year to reach a certain level, sometimes it takes 20 like the sister who posted in the shahadah forum. and that's ok, sometimes it does take time and when you look back, sometimes you realize Allah was with you guiding you at turns.

i know this one sister who took her shahadah at 40 something and she said 'all my life Allah has been trying to guide me.' When she looked back she remembered a Muslim boy in her high school who did the athan over the loudspeakers one day in the 70's in brooklyn and she said she was struck then about Islam. Then later as her life progressed, one of her uncles joined the Nation and then one year someone gave her the Autobiography of Malcolm X. Looking back it seemed like Allah was trying to send her a sign, until she finally took one and found her way to learning about Islam.  

so don't worry azizah i know Allah is guiding you inshaAllah :)



Re: Having doubts/lack of faith/deen
SisterHania
10/11/05 at 11:11:33
[slm]

Everyone is absolutely right. The feeling of being down is due to the limited association with other Muslims.

As great as modern technology is in bring people together, there is nothing better than being surrounded with the people that shape your thoughts and feelings and make you feel as though you belong somewhere. These are the people that bring you up and give you the strength to carry on.

I have been feeling so low because I'm teaching in a high school with no Muslim kids or teachers and I feel so lonely. But it's made me realise that I do want to be in an Islamic environment and the only way I can change things is by seeking out where I want to be. I'm quitting in two months inshallah going to work in a Muslim school inshallah and thats helping me get through the next few months.

Sis you need to go to a mosque, make the effort, especially during ramadan and be surrounded by people that you will bring you up. Maybe this is a test from Allah to prompt you to go and seek those people to make your faith stronger? :)

You need people otherwise you will feel alone.


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